Wow how time passes!! My last blog was in August 2009 and a lot has changed since then. I have still been following many blogs but needed a break from blogging myself. I now have the need to write again and blog my journey.
I was married earlier this year to my beautiful partner Ben. We have been together 10 years in December and he really is my better half- he truly is a wonderful person who treats me like an angel. I am so lucky to him :)
I still have good days as well as having some not so good days but I finally took the step to getting some help before the wedding. I did not want to take my body/food issues into this marriage especially pass anything to on to my future children. I want to feel confident and feel good in my own shoes. I am getting there but it will not be something that will change over night. I found it hard to completely open up but starting to make some progress in that department. The one thing that I really wanted was to feel beautiful on my wedding day and look back at the photos and love what I see and not criticise every last detail. I can successfully say I achieved this and my wedding day was an absolute dream.
Since the wedding I have been having some huge problems with my stomach, with pain after eating and lots of bloating. I am scheduled for an ultrasound later this week as well as blood tests to see if I have gall stones. I hope I do not have this but I hope they do find out what is going on. I just feel "blah" all the time. I have put on a few kgs since the wedding and the bloating is not helping so I really want to focus on losing this the right way. I am trying to not be so strict on my self and listen to what I have been told but some demons get in the way. I am only allowed to weigh myself once a week. I ask my other half to hide the scales so I can not be tempted and so far this is working. I also think that this weather is making it tough for me, because I really crave warm comforting food.
My training these days mainly consists of running. I ran the Perth city to surf half marathon last year and I am planning to do the same again this year. This year I have also convinced my two good friends to join me and we have been doing our long runs together every weekend. I then try and run 2-3 times plus this long run every week and some resistance work in between. I am also going to get some help with the resistance training so I can keep strong and possibly change my shape slightly.
So my goals for the remainder of this week are:
1. Track my food everyday (I also need to do this to see if any food triggers a strong pain)
2. Not snack before and after dinner (I tend to snack when I get home from work and after dinner so I am really going to try hard to keep myself busy to avoid this).
3. Drink 8 glasses of water a day.
So small achievable goals for the remainder of this week.
It is nice to be back :)